Roommate Issues

Today was interesting to say the least. After five days of having no Krista, it's been sort of hard to get used to having her back. She wasn't even home ten minutes before she made me want to punch her in the face. However, now... I just feel sorry for her. And I feel conviction for the way we have talked about her and the hard heart I have had for her lately. Although, some might think the hard heart towards her is pretty understandable, God sees it differently. I should have a loving heart for everyone even when I feel I am done wrong.

We are having a "family meeting" with her tomorrow night. We are tired of walking on egg shells around her just to ease the tension. But I know that this family meeting will be different over all the others. This meeting will include everything that we have had a problem with from the very beginning. We won't be holding anything back. She will know exactly how we feel, and I hope we will know exactly how she feels without any misunderstanding. She feels like we are taking her the wrong way when she points things out to us, so this is going to be the time to get everything out in the open without any misunderstandings on either of our parts. I sort of hate that it has come to this because over the summer when we hung out a little bit, I felt really good about her. I could tell she was kinda weird, but I didn't think it was anything we couldn't work with.

I pray for her though. I pray that she would come to our meeting with an open mind. That she would hopefully see that we aren't out to get her but rather resolve things with her. Come to more of an understanding. I pray for our meeting. That God would just have His hand over it. That He would move the meeting in a way that would be pleasing to Him.

God has just recently taught me a lot about trusting Him in everything that I do and in every situation that I am in. Without a lot of details, He is teaching me to trust Him over things that I have absolutely no control over. Even though I feel like I might be able to do something about it, God is the only one who can. He is the only that can change a heart. Even when this heart is running from everything that it knows is good and right. I pray so intently for this heart. This heart thinks it is doing what is best, when in fact it is doing the exact opposite. I know God has His hand on it. I just pray that I would continue to seek after this fact and understand that I am just human. I can do nothing more than to pray and trust.

John 14:1 Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.