The World Sucks.

I don't know if it was that I was so sheltered before or that the world has just gotten worse in the past few years. Specifically, the past two of my college years. But, during the past couple years, I have realized how cruel and just sick-nasty the whole world is.

Sometimes, I wish I could actually go back to high school when things were easy. Didn't worry about the future, didn't care whether or not I had a boyfriend, didn't have to wonder how I was going to pay off school loans, etc. Now I just feel like the world is sitting on my shoulders. And it's not like I am going to be able to take it off any time soon. I have to make it through college with good grades and without dying from lack of sleep, and then right after I get out, I have to find a job and work the rest of my life. Needless to say, the world is going to have to stay on my shoulders until probably the day I die.

Why can't life just be easy? All the time I wish God would just send me a list of things that I need to get done throughout my life. Places I need to go, people I need to talk to... You know? Just have my whole life plan written out for me and sent to me in the mail. Unfortunately, I think God has more of a sense of humor than that. I bet He gets a kick out of us running around looking like fools when the answer is right in front of our faces the whole time.

This past weekend, I led my first Disciple Now, and it happened to be one of the most amazing experiences in my life. Although, the middle school students went for their own spiritual experience, I was able to go for my own spiritual experience as well. It was something that I had been needing. God spoke a lot to me this past weekend. He also proved to me that I can be a leader. I also learned that middle schoolers aren't that bad!

Now, I am back at school. Really starting to crack down. Good grades are my number one priority. My roommates are beautiful people. Tracy got to go to her first Old Crow Medicine Show last night in Tuscaloosa. Such an entertaining show. She might have even found her soul mate on stage. Not sure. But, nonetheless, I got some good photos out of the deal and I sort of can't wait for my next show. I hated OCMS when Ben first introduced me to them, but ever since I saw them the very first time in May, I have a much higher appreciation for them.